cloud nine.

i wish i can have everything that i wished for. who wouldn't want that aite?
right now, at this very moment, i wish i can fly up in the sky, and have the clouds all around me.

winter breeze.

at this very moment, i wish i can have a walk by the beach and smell those fresh air. smell and smell them til all the worries buzz away. being a grown-up woman is not easy at all. i guess it's time for me to pack my running shoe and start running again. i'll miss this year KL marathon (as if as i've joined any before, LOL!). it was one of my new year resolution tho. too bad i have to keep it aside first.

oh by the way, i had a weird dream last night. eh no no! it was a scary dream and was not weird at all! it was a nightmare! i promise i will not (or at least i try not to) to fight or quarrel with anyone and not make up with them before i go to sleep. i'm so scared of having nightmares again, especially when it involves my loved ones. so shuuh you away nightmares! i hate you!

but wait a minute! they said nightmares are the best training ground for you to face your fear.. nah! i still don't want any of them. krukkruk.

poof!

i'm too full to fall asleep. and there're loads in mind right now. but that's not why i am scribbling here. sigh.

i just want to be invisible. gone like poof!....

















































see, i was gone for a while just now. unseen. just gone.

with all its might.

let the battle begin.

p/s: i will always be here. do not fear. be good. i will love you. trust me.

CNY !

chinese new year is just around the corner. to all the rabbits out there, i pray all of us (of course including me !) to succeed in our lives, to prosper remarkably and become more fruitful each and every day. :D

forte.

i was walking out from the instrument workshop with my boss after a cold and result-less meeting yesterday when suddenly a man whom i should describe as old and selekeh based on my first glance came toward us and offered his hand for a shake.

i just smiled and assumed he's just another friend of my boss. as they talked then i saw his name tag. it was my SV for goodness sake and i did not realize it was him ! he became so thin and his skin is burnt due to the chemo he has to go through due to his cancer. and during that instance tears rolled down by my cheek.

he seemed so strong as if as nothing had ever happened to him. he tried to talk with all might as the cancer had literally taken away the loud voice he used to have. all i can said to him was: pak cik! mek x pasan ya kitak tek eh. sowie~. and he smiled back. i believe no one will ever recognize it's him if he ever pass by them. but he is still the same man who smile with his crooked teeth and fight real hard to live longer.

i pray for courage and strength to always be in you throughout this period of hardship. God's will, you will able to beat the cancer. God's will, everything will be painless for you. God's will, everything will be fine and you will have nothing to be worried about. God's will, you will gain back the pounds that you had lost. and by God's will, you will stay healthy and happy beside your loved ones.

set sail !

please, please don't go back just yet. let's have a roadtrip and make it a memorable one.

eiffel i'm in LOVE !

i've been dreaming, planning, dreaming again, planning again so much lately about a trip to this particular place. i am so deeply in LOVE with it. >.< !

raise up both hands if you think it is beautiful. fascinating view ain't it ?

please please let me fly to Paris !

crazieyy

have you ever gone crazy for something that you adore so much but can't get your hands on it?

i do !

.

now someone please convince me that i do can get my hands on this one. cos i seriously want it so effing freaking lots.