Sophie.

I have a two-year old daughter named Nur Sophie Hanaa whom we called Sophie or Sopi (with high pitch at the end when she refused to listen to us).

She's independent and tough. Cry just to attract attention but she can do everything on her own, especially in entertaining herself. I'm so proud of you, Sophie. You are the reason why I'm still here, fighting.

Bacaan Doa Berlindung Dari Musibah Berat

“Allaahumma innii a’uuzubika min jahdil balaa’i wa darakisy syaqaa’i wa suu ‘il qadaa’i wa syamaatatil a’da ‘i”

“Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari musibah yang berat, celaka yang menimpa, keputusan (qada) yang buruk, dan kejahatan para musuh. (H.R. Bukhari)”

Breastfeeding.

I have a family member who doesn't support breastfeeding. Why? I have no idea too. It hurts everytime when she came to visit and put a remark that i have not enough breast milk to supply to little khaleef. The same thing happened when i was breasfeeding sophie. I was katak di bawah tempurung at that time, having this remark constantly uttered to my ear, i surrender and gave up. This i regret till forever. This time, i am more knowledge equipped. Breastmilk is produced based on demand. Whenever there is demand, there will be production. Most importantly, sabar, doa, usaha and tawakal. This is for a good cause, God will provide. He will certainly provide!

perfection.

nothing is perfect. and today the imperfection makes me cry. i just can't be perfect and i can't have that perfectness which i long for. why is it have to be that way? this is frustrating and hurtful and i can't stop crying. dear baby, pls be perfectly healthy. i've loved you. love, mama.

O2.

Cuteness sky high.

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this I must share!

found this interesting post on the 9gag. very creative indeed. and the level of cuteness is sky high!!

short update.

today is sophie 1st day at school. eh nursery. she woke up early today (as usual) and start googii-ing sampai bising satu rumah. oh I hope everything goes well. can't wait to pick her up later in the evening.

sophie's (2 months old) having fever after her injection. can you see her watery eyes. huhu.

wiggle wiggle wiggle.

I almost gave up. googling for nurseryain't easy at all. till i found this one blog which save my life. wheehu!

We are going to pay a visit to the taska later. hopefully can secure a place for sophie. sending her to my mom's house at bakam is very tiring. we (sophie and I) spent 3 hours everyday on the car so I know how tiring it must be for sophie to wake up early every weekdays. I hope by sending her to this nursery, she can enjoy her sleep more in the morning and  not becoming so cranky at night.

this is the picture of the three of us! the best I have so far. hope to shoot more wonderful family picture after this. 

seriously sleepy.

waking up early every weekdays is a challenge for me. now that the school has started I need to wake up even more early to avoid the frustrating jam.

Chinese new year is coming soon. can't wait to have a long sleep during the weekdays. thank God this year it falls on Monday and Tuesday! then we anak beranak can cuddle in bed together and enjoy our long weekend.

oh! Sophie has started to roll over! today i woke up to find her leg at the edge of the bed. I quickly put her back on her bed and place her booster beside her before feeding her. Watching her grinning in her sleep is so much delightful. I hope she enjoys growing up because I'm enjoying every moment of it. and it seems like yesterday that I saw her being lifted out from my tummy. how time flies kan?! hope it's not too late to wish you all a happy new year. I hope this year we can grow more mature physically, mentally and spiritually.

till we meet again in next entry okay! take care!

ring ring!

i wish i can have 48 hours per day. or maybe less hour of working. instead of the regular 8 hours per day why not we, the mother especially, only need to work for 4 hours. if there is urgent matter we can simply settle them from home instead of going to the office. how fun is that?

oh btw, it was the 24th 28 yesterday and i got a ring (again). =D well women love jewellery, don't we?


sigh. i miss my baby. today she woke up at 5 in the morning and gave me a toothless smile. and a smelly pampers. poo poo liaw.

hooray!

because He has the power upon everything, who are we to go against Him? and life is never easy but His promise to always be with us shall be kept for eternity.

i never thought or imagine myself of being pregnant. because when i 'plan' my future, being pregnant never come across my mind. it has always been getting married and have kids without the 'pregnancy' stage. and as i slowly sailing through this insignicant stage of life, i came to realize how signigicant is this stage of being pregnant. having a baby in your tummy makes you feel like a powerful goddess, an emo who would cry almost because of everything, a weirdo who would suddenly sings lullaby and laugh or smile with no reason at all. sounds like a wonderful experience kan? but as your expected due date crawl right beside your arm, you cant help yourself thinking and worrying about the baby which will born out of you. will he be able to breathe on his own? will he be healthy enough to cry out his 1st cry ever? yeah i do worry much. that's the reason im blogging at this hour. an expectant mom should get enough rest and her sleep. but i just fail to convince myself that everything will be okay and its okay to go to sleep. oh i wish u were here because your breath calms me.

september!

it's september already. mid sept! my fingers are swelling. so do my feet. apatah lg my perut la kan. even wearing low-cut panties make me feel uneasy. and those stretchmarks really make me feel ugly. but what Dr. Lee told me is so true. the 1st sacrifice (on my physical body) is those stretchmarks. more to come when it comes to labour process. tear and cuts. and my body might turn blue due to excessive pushing. * exaggerating of course!*

omg! the feelings are like cincau yogurt. indescribable.

ok sgt panasss. jom berendam puas2! (:

butterflies.

there're things in life we wish we could change and forget like it never happen. and there're things that we wish we could share and not being judged. right now, i'm pouring it all out to my lil' baby inside my womb. i wonder if he/she understands. i strongly believe he/she cries whenever i cry. so right now, he/she is crying, just like me. but the butterflies in the tummy will always cheer me up. no matter what. so let's stop crying and say hi to Syaqiq Jr.! (:

and his name is sheldon cooper.

last night was a chaos. and the dream was even worse!

i dream of giving birth to a baby weighing 4.88 kg. tall n thin and can talk! and his face was exactly like...

too much of The Big Bang Theory marathon i guess.

Dear God, give me strength to overcome anything and everything. i won't give up so easily.
i can do everything through You who gives me strength.

the new label - Baby.

of all the feelings i have right now, i choose sadness. i choose to let the tears roll down the cheek and the heart dwell in pain. maybe part of me feel relieve, and some of them are in unknown cause of disappointment. i'm not sure either.

be safe dear baby. i can't afford to lose you. not now, not in the future, not till forever. you will always be my baby and i'll love you so till the end of my days. can't wait to see you soon, watch you grow each day. now how can i let you get married and build your own masjid later? ): oh i love you...

oh baby, baby oh!~

i wish i can share this happiness to the whole world. well, i am sharing it here kan? (: i feel so happy that my hand can dance along the tapping sound of the keyboard and thus the continuous typo that i have to backspace and retype again n again. but hye yo! i'm so happy right now!!

magic.

i love watching grey's anatomy. although i have no knowledge at all in anatomy. but i love the story line. and there was this 1 particular episode from season 6 where a premature baby was born and almost lost her life. the doctor pulled out the life support system as they thought the baby will never make it. but surprisingly she did. alex took her and embraced her by putting her close to his heart. the baby's heart beat gradually picked up and finally she could breathe normally. see how a baby is link to another person to survive? a baby inside the womb enjoys the sound of the empty stomach of her mom. she has her mom's heart beat as lullaby. her mom heart beat would tell her everything will be fine and she has nothing to be worried about. they are fragile creature who recover fast and survive worst. sometimes medicine could not heal every illness. but human touch does. and at times it's not because of someone's character which make him strong but his faith does and the word of God strengthen him.

so whenever you feel weak and helpless, remember there is someone who will never abandon you.
Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
have a lil' faith and never ever lose hope!