windmill.

the movements are entertaining. so entertaining you would laugh even when you are watching 1 litre of tears. and she's so lovable i will never ever let her go.

the chief of heroes.

on this special day, this special post is dedicated to my adorable daddy.

during my Sunday School year, we were taught how to make cards for our dad for father's day. i remembered there was once when our Sunday School teacher taught us the meaning of adorable so that we can write it in our cards. She told my dad is adorable. so i should write "to my adorable daddy, happy father's day". however at that age my adjectives were limited between ugly and pretty. never had i came across with the word adorable. then the teacher explained to me "well your dad is not handsome, but he's not ugly either, so he's adorable! " so that's how i learnt the meaning of adorable. (:

but today is not father's day. it's my dad's birthday. i couldn't thank him more for giving me everything that i had achieved today. his contribution is sky-high and can never be repaid. and today, he gave me this special verse which i will never ever forget.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

i couldn't continue writing, the tears just can't stop flowing. i will always be your lil girl, dad. and i love u. u know i do.
muzium sarawak, kuching

forever.

i've been drafting few posts lately but decided not to post them just because. no reason. my mind is empty, so do my post. there are all empty.

i hope this song soothes your soul. like what it currently does to mine. now lets breathe in and exhale. shuuh u anxiety. shuuh u negative thoughts. i just want to be loved. ):

the new label - Baby.

of all the feelings i have right now, i choose sadness. i choose to let the tears roll down the cheek and the heart dwell in pain. maybe part of me feel relieve, and some of them are in unknown cause of disappointment. i'm not sure either.

be safe dear baby. i can't afford to lose you. not now, not in the future, not till forever. you will always be my baby and i'll love you so till the end of my days. can't wait to see you soon, watch you grow each day. now how can i let you get married and build your own masjid later? ): oh i love you...

scale.

i'm gaining weight. i know it's normal to gain weight especially when you are pregnant. and being fat at certain area makes you look even hotter! agree not? :p but looking at the scale scares me. when it hits 50ish kg i feel choke. and when it strikes 60ish kg i barely breathe. baby, when you are out for good, you are going to bring me for intense work-out. oh i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you.

oh i still can't forget the feelings of being disappointed by my friend. T_T i really had tried to move on and forget about what had happened. sigh! of course i still care for you. hope you are doing great out there. hope that you don't cry yourself to sleep and not having terrible break-out when you are sad.