Rain.

I really love it when it rains. Especially during this confinement period. When it rains, i feel less hot and i can sleep more soundly since the baby is enjoying the cold weather too. One thing i like the most when it rains is the smell of the road. I used to work at field before. Sometimes, it is enough just to smell the rain after a long hour working under the hot sun. It refreshes the mind, soul and body. And of course, if it rains, we can go back early and mengular. 

Can't wait to end this confinement. I want to be strong and healthy, because i believe a supermom can be produced!

Breastfeeding.

I have a family member who doesn't support breastfeeding. Why? I have no idea too. It hurts everytime when she came to visit and put a remark that i have not enough breast milk to supply to little khaleef. The same thing happened when i was breasfeeding sophie. I was katak di bawah tempurung at that time, having this remark constantly uttered to my ear, i surrender and gave up. This i regret till forever. This time, i am more knowledge equipped. Breastmilk is produced based on demand. Whenever there is demand, there will be production. Most importantly, sabar, doa, usaha and tawakal. This is for a good cause, God will provide. He will certainly provide!

Health supplement.

I only managed to get B3 for my SPM Biology paper. I've struggled to the very end. My strategy of sleeping at 12 midnight and to wake up at 4a.m. for final revision had failed me after all. I even took the courage to swallow 2 packs of nescafe 3-in-1 to make the eyes stayed open. Little that i know lacking of sleep makes the brain less functional and what i've read few hours before the paper was not there in my memory registry. I went to the examination hall feeling so much tired than confident. During my uni life, i learned to take things more slowly. I put less stress on myself and try to manage my time wisely. But in uni, staying awake till late midnight is a trend. To hang out at mamak after hours of revision is a must. But i did not take any nescafe 3-in-1 to stay awake. When the eyes can't take it anymore, i'll go to bed and have some rest. But during lectures and tutorials, i tried to grab as much as possible so that when i revise, i'd spent less time understanding what i read. I was no bright student who score in every subject, i was an average student with average learning rate but was hardworking enough to make myself able to compete with others. I got dean's list award for seven consecutive semester. My final semester was a tough one. Met a crazy guy which i can't let go off up till this moment. Constantly went out for movies, dinner, supper, and what not. So it is true they say uni life is the best among all.

Oh back to the topic. Health supplement. Now, being a mother of two, health supplement is part of the meal. A working mother of two makes my schedule tighter, more laundry to be washed, more tummy to be fed, more needs to be met etc. I'm not saying that i depend on supplement to stay active, but they do help! They help me to reduce stress as well. How? Simply by giving me more energy. When you are less tired, you will have enough energy to attain to various need and request from those around you. Now this is important as mother because it is my job to take care of my loved ones; to make sure they have enough love and attention. I wont talk any science or chemistry or what not here, because it is not my field. Give me some time to study them, and i'll get back to you in future entry. I have 60 days minus 14 days to spend! Wheee.

Confinement.

Today is my 7th day of confining. Felt so much healthier compared to previous confinement. I still remember last time when my in laws came which was already day-20, i was still using my hand to support my belly and constantly felt tired. But today, on day 7, my belly has shrank and i feel so energized. And yes this is what i prayed for when i decided to take few products from Shaklee and Catalyst as supplement - to feel energized and healthy. I took a bidan to take care of my physical body. I started my urut and bertapel session the day after i was being discharged. She bathed me and massage the whole body. First day was painful maybe because of the 'wind'. The following days were better. I wore bengkung around the tummy w/o touching the wounded area. And today the tummy has shrank and the wound is healing fast too. She gave me some ubat kampung to be taken daily to help to shrank the uterus. I had my bertangas session too.

Btw, have you guys ever wonder why did our datuk nenek can work under the sun at the age of 60 and look healthy in spite their old age?  I would say it is because of their food intake. Today, most of our food is contaminated with chemicals and fast food is always more tempting than home cook meal, no? That is why i believe food supplement is essential to provide those nutrient that we might missed out from our meal. Currently, im taking few vitamins which are essential for the body. Plus, im exclusively breastfeeding Khaleef, thus supplements which can enhance the milk production is vital. I'll share more on the vitamins in later post. It is time for me to have some rest. Night y' all and happy Chinese  new year!

second.

the feelings of expecting 2nd baby is so different than the 1st one. it is not less happy, it is somehow less expecting. get what I mean? I still remember when I was expecting for Sophie, I've prepared my bags 3 months ahead, bought some clothes 2 months before, prepared for everything before my pregnancy hit week  30th week. What I did after that was exercising, walking around the field for 1 hour or more everyday because I felt no significant pain to indicate I'll be giving labour soon. When I reached 40th week of pregnancy, there was still no significant pain. I went to the doctor and asked why was the baby not out yet because my bags were now full of dust and I didn't experience any sign of labour. The doctor asked me to wait for another week. Perhaps this waiting that made the 1st pregnancy more exciting. After 6 days, I went with cheerful face and end up being induced, because it's full term and I just want the baby to come out. To cut the story short, I ended up having caesarian because I can't stand the pain. T_T The pain was too much to bear and I can't think straight anymore. I took painkiller twice; one in the afternoon another one in the evening (not sure what type of medicine) and when my opening was 7cm (around 10pm) I begged for another painkiller but they can't give it to me because I've took the max dose. They should have told me to keep the last painkiller for this moment. sighhhh. ohh back to the preparation for this 2nd baby. As of now I'm in week 35, another 5 weeks to go. Maybe 2-3 weeks because the baby is down there already. Hopefully can go for normal. The mental must be strong. I must believe that I can do it. And hopefully the scar of previous operation x tear. HUHHUHUHHU. I'm scared but I'm ready to fight this battle. May God lead us to the right path. amin amin amin.

For this 2nd baby I tried to prepare more on mental, to read more books and blogs on the net. To equip myself with more knowledge on breastfeeding because breast milk is the best milk for the baby. I regretted for not fully breast feed Sophie. I'm so sorry sayang. but that does not make me love you less, you know that kan. sooooooooooooooooooo, I think that's all I wanted to share on expecting this 2nd baby. semoga dipermudahkan.