boiling water.

these days I lost my temper so easily. even the sticky floor can trigger the rage. sigh. I guess I really need a break. or maybe a walk. I really miss running. because when I run, I feel relieve. I feel as if I still have the control over my body. to sacrifice your life for someone else's is not easy. it requires time, patient and most importantly, love. will you sacrifice your life for someone whom you not love? and I miss my me-time where I can read my book and not give a damn to anything else.

today.

and at this moment of distress, I have no one but You alone to seek help and guidance.
make me stronger than yesterday, dear Lord. make me stronger.

bob bob baby blue.

this is how it feels to work in an air-conditioned office. you feel so cold that the eyes choose to shut itself.





































my eyes are struggling right now. sigh. I really need to lie down and sleep.

heart break.

whenever a person treat you like you dont deserve any love, dumb him. why wait? why so faithful to those who never give you a thought? if insecurities strike you, move on. dont get too attach with those who cant promise you anything. who put himself above anyone else. who thinks he's so great he can treat others like rubbish.

right now, i feel like running. run away and never return. but responsibilities cant be taken for granted. and running away is no longer an option.

101.

they say 101 means eternity. so for this 101th post, i would like to pray for everlasting love among us.

may future be bright for us, may love bind us together till the very end.

give me oil in my lamp.

sad. sad. sad. spending too much time reading news makes me sad. incredibly sad. really, what's wrong with the world, mama? where have we gone wrong? how can those incidents ever happen? girl raped by their own father and brothers? mom performed blowjob to her own son? a 17-year-old boy killed a family of 4? like how come? why so cruel? kenak sampei glak hati molah macam ya? T_T

good and bad are totally messed up. if the society accepts gay marriage does that make it right? because right and wrong are two different things. for right is white, and wrong is black. there's no grey area.you can't be in the between. it's unacceptable. let them be, as long as they are happy then it's okay. what does okay means? okay means it's okay to commit sin/crime as long as the doer is happy? this is so wrong. 

consciences no longer work. desire has totally overpowered them. sad?

this I must share!

found this interesting post on the 9gag. very creative indeed. and the level of cuteness is sky high!!

funny.

because collision which happen on a straight road is hilarious. it's unacceptable. how can it happen at the first place? but again, who ever can smell bad luck is god. sigh.

short update.

today is sophie 1st day at school. eh nursery. she woke up early today (as usual) and start googii-ing sampai bising satu rumah. oh I hope everything goes well. can't wait to pick her up later in the evening.

sophie's (2 months old) having fever after her injection. can you see her watery eyes. huhu.

wiggle wiggle wiggle.

I almost gave up. googling for nurseryain't easy at all. till i found this one blog which save my life. wheehu!

We are going to pay a visit to the taska later. hopefully can secure a place for sophie. sending her to my mom's house at bakam is very tiring. we (sophie and I) spent 3 hours everyday on the car so I know how tiring it must be for sophie to wake up early every weekdays. I hope by sending her to this nursery, she can enjoy her sleep more in the morning and  not becoming so cranky at night.

this is the picture of the three of us! the best I have so far. hope to shoot more wonderful family picture after this. 

ambulance driver.

I wonder, how can ambulance drivers drive their ambulance steadily when there are people behind fighting for their lives? the sound of the siren is enough to make me panic.

surely, they are heroes too!

unpost entry.

there're so much to say but i guess right now silent is the best way to keep the heart numb. can't think of better way to ease the pain. so much pain, so much hatred, so much regret, so much tears that i became worried if the baby might feel the same feelings i'm having right now. i pray that you can become stronger than ur mom, it's okay if you want to cry as much as your mother did, but pls be stronger, in whatever circumstances know that God will always be with you to lead you the way. and the path lead by God will always be the calmness path. it might not be the easiest one but acknowledge that God will keep your heart calm and you definitely sail it through smoothly. with no regret, no hatred, but with joy and gladness.

okay now i talk like my dad. >.

security.

I admit that I'm a person who can easily feel insecure. anything that reminds me of the past can make me feel insecure. so much of insecurities that eventually jeopardize my relationship with my loved ones.

how not to feel insecure? simple, by reminding myself that we live not for the world but for God alone. everything will come to an end eventually and God has promised us heaven when everything ends. but is my faith enough to secure a place there in heaven? thinking about that make me feel insecure, again. sigh.. why so much of insecurities? so how not to feel insecure?

I miss driving at high speed. gugu. (x berkaitan langsung!)

seriously sleepy.

waking up early every weekdays is a challenge for me. now that the school has started I need to wake up even more early to avoid the frustrating jam.

Chinese new year is coming soon. can't wait to have a long sleep during the weekdays. thank God this year it falls on Monday and Tuesday! then we anak beranak can cuddle in bed together and enjoy our long weekend.

oh! Sophie has started to roll over! today i woke up to find her leg at the edge of the bed. I quickly put her back on her bed and place her booster beside her before feeding her. Watching her grinning in her sleep is so much delightful. I hope she enjoys growing up because I'm enjoying every moment of it. and it seems like yesterday that I saw her being lifted out from my tummy. how time flies kan?! hope it's not too late to wish you all a happy new year. I hope this year we can grow more mature physically, mentally and spiritually.

till we meet again in next entry okay! take care!